Glutten for punishment

So how did my birthday go? Ok, until I talked to my sister. She has been trying to get me on myspace for months now. We also got into a discussion about B. So she says " I bet he is on myspace." I reply that there is no way he would be on there. She does a search and he pops right up. Him and his girlfriend. There they are plain as day with the rest of the pedophiles. I read his blog and it turns out he's been with this girl for a long time. So he lied to me. My sister asked if I was suprised. Suprised no, hurt yes. He says on there that she's the sexiest girlfriend ever and goes on to call her an amazing woman. He is also still talking to all the kids he hung around with out here. So he is more than likely back into all his drinking and drugs. I joined just so I could see his site. Nothing like torturing yourself on your birthday. I know that I need to let go and move on, and I really have been trying. My friend R said last night that I'm trying too hard. I don't know what the hell to do anymore.
So I'm on myspace now. I'll have a link to it on the sidebar later. I'm currently talking to three guys from match with a definate interest in one of them. No new job yet either. Today is one of those days where I just want to go away.