HELP

So I didn't answer any of my dates attempts to get a hold of me yesterday. I had a very long, not so great day and went home feeling like shit. Actually I felt like shit most of the day. He texted me, emailed me, and called me. All stating that he thought we had a good time and when can we do it again. Of coarse now I'm rethinking the second date. Mainly because I've come to realize that in order to resolve this other problem with money and my job, I need a new job. Problem being that I adore my boss and it takes so long for him to trust anyone and they'd be here doing the exact same thing as I am. I don't trust anyone to do my job at this point. I know that I have to look out for me, not selfishly, but self preservingly. And in the whole self preserving frame of mind, I need to take care of the job situation and get my head back on straight before I try dating. Number 2 against the second date is the missing chemistry. He'd be a good friend, but I don't see it going any farther than that. Honestly I don't want to hurt any of these guys, and now that I know what's going on I feel like I should take a step back and work on that first. It's the old saying that if you don't love yourself then no one else can either. I have to be happy with my life and where I'm at before I can share it with someone else. And it's very obvious that I'm not happy with much right now. Wish me luck.