Sorry

I know that I haven't posted in almost a week now. I write on both blogs now. BR reads the one on myspace so I keep it clean and empty of all my baggage. This is the one where I get to go off. I checked out B's site the other day (thanks to some family members) and he mentioned me but as "other people". Yesterday was his one year anniversary for being drug free. He talked about how happy he was with the perfect girl and life. Then he mentioned how he's happy that other people are happy too, despite the resentment. FUCKER! If it wasn't for me he wouldn't be alive right now. I put my entire being into that relationship and all I got was the very worst of him. This girl has known him for under a year and she gets the very best. All I want is a little acknowledgement and thanks. He went on to thank other friends of his for everything they did for him. I'm the one that sat there by his side when he was at rock bottom. I cleaned up the messes left behind. When he wanted nothing but to kill himself, I was the one that was there. I did it all without judgement, without questioning, without a second thought. I think it's not to much to ask for a simple thank you.