Trust

One of the major components in any relationship. Like I said I over react to things that aren't even there. He was just extremely tired and feel asleep. Nothing's changed regarding his feelings. Here's the dilemma I'm having now. He's been offered a really good job back in Idaho. A lot more money, better hours, benefits, the whole package. He turned it down because "All that money isn't worth losing you." Once again he has me dumbfounded. Problem being he's still thinking about the job. He really does want it. What the hell is happening to my one day a time. So last night I asked the question that I hate and never ask. Where do you see this going? I love him I truely do, but I'm not putting myself out there and making sacrifices if he's not in the same place. We discussed his heartbreaker syndrom. I told him that if he breaks my heart there will be NO second chances. I'm not gonna call him up and beg and plead and tell him I still love him like the ex in Idaho. However, if he continues to treat me right and make me happy then he'll have me by his side, supporting him completely. Where does that leave us? Not sure. I'm still hoping that he'll decide to stay here and we can continue to grow our relationship one day at a time. I have a habit of jumping into things to quickly; and I'm really trying very hard to take this slower and go into it eyes wide open. A and I discussed the whole love at first sight thing the other night. We don't believe in it for one reason, dopemine. In the beginning of the relationship it's surging through your veins and everything is great. We believe it's when things start to settle in and calm down that you can truely asses the feelings. When the honeymoon is over and pedestal is gone, that's when you can tell if it's meant to be.