The hard way
Today's horoscope...
You can't decide what you want to say versus what you should keep to yourself. This dilemma may not have one correct answer. You feel like you're on a seesaw as you swing back and forth between expression and retreat. Try not to go too far in either direction as you reveal yourself gradually.
Like I don't have that problem every day. Unfortunately, I learn the hard way who I can trust and who I can't. Truth be told, I learn just about everything the hard way. I have no idea why. I wish I knew. I wish I had that sixth sense to let me know about people and life. I've been told that I do and I just don't listen to it. I can't deny that one. I usually don't listen when people straight out tell me certain things either. I'm much too stubborn. That's the Irish, German, bull in me.
It also makes me a doormat. I trust and trust and trust again, all the wrong people. Deep down I know that I'm going to be let down. For some reason, yet to be figured out, I do it. These people can read others and know they can do this with me. I'm fairly easy to read, so it's not difficult for them. I get lied to, cheated on, and walked on constantly. When I try to stand up for myself I'm made to feel like 1) I'm letting them down or 2) I'm being unreasonable. Great, huh.
I am one those people that will go out my way for those I care about. I do anything at any time that I possibly can. Even things I shouldn't do sometimes. Anyone who knows me knows that. I bend over backwards and put myself in situations in which I'm extremely uncomfortable and unhappy to make them happy. I'm the one that deals.
I see some of what I put out there returned. But nothing from the ones I expect it the most from. I don't think I have great expectations or even unreasonable ones. I never ask for than I am willing to give of myself. I heard last week that in relationships there is no such thing as unconditional love. Everyone has a breaking point. I am only human, just like you, and can only deal with so much.
So think, honestly think, before you ask something of me. Because I will do it. Would you do it yourself?
You can't decide what you want to say versus what you should keep to yourself. This dilemma may not have one correct answer. You feel like you're on a seesaw as you swing back and forth between expression and retreat. Try not to go too far in either direction as you reveal yourself gradually.
Like I don't have that problem every day. Unfortunately, I learn the hard way who I can trust and who I can't. Truth be told, I learn just about everything the hard way. I have no idea why. I wish I knew. I wish I had that sixth sense to let me know about people and life. I've been told that I do and I just don't listen to it. I can't deny that one. I usually don't listen when people straight out tell me certain things either. I'm much too stubborn. That's the Irish, German, bull in me.
It also makes me a doormat. I trust and trust and trust again, all the wrong people. Deep down I know that I'm going to be let down. For some reason, yet to be figured out, I do it. These people can read others and know they can do this with me. I'm fairly easy to read, so it's not difficult for them. I get lied to, cheated on, and walked on constantly. When I try to stand up for myself I'm made to feel like 1) I'm letting them down or 2) I'm being unreasonable. Great, huh.
I am one those people that will go out my way for those I care about. I do anything at any time that I possibly can. Even things I shouldn't do sometimes. Anyone who knows me knows that. I bend over backwards and put myself in situations in which I'm extremely uncomfortable and unhappy to make them happy. I'm the one that deals.
I see some of what I put out there returned. But nothing from the ones I expect it the most from. I don't think I have great expectations or even unreasonable ones. I never ask for than I am willing to give of myself. I heard last week that in relationships there is no such thing as unconditional love. Everyone has a breaking point. I am only human, just like you, and can only deal with so much.
So think, honestly think, before you ask something of me. Because I will do it. Would you do it yourself?
posted by alwaysd | 11:46 AM
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