Really?

So I met with B on Sunday. Nice guy , NO chemistry. We really have a lot in common. Problem is that he doesn't look better than his picture (I had given him the benefit of the doubt in hopes that he would); he looks worse. Yesterday was just another reminder of what is actually out there. I'm getting very disheartened with the whole thing. I watched 2 movies yesterday based on true stories about love. It really didn't help any. I want to be in love. I want to be loved. I want someone that when I see them I light up. That I can cuddle up against at night and wake up next to in the morning. That with just a smile from him my whole day is wonderful. I want someone to share with. I'm feeling very lonely today. Can you tell?! I'm still working the whole match thing. I sent emails to two of them today. I know that I should have more patience with it too. It's just very discouraging. I turned it over it's out of my hands. I just wonder what they're waiting on. Maybe I'll do the cards tonight with A. Who am I kidding? Of coarse I'll do the cards tonight. I just want to know what I'm supposed to next to make this happen.