YabaDabaDoooo!

Holy Shit! Holy Shit! Holy Shit! Holy Shit! Holy Shit! Holy Shit! Holy Shit! Holy Shit! Holy Shit! He fucking called me last night. I went home after work absolutely exhausted. Gave my roommate the run down and we both kind of agreed that all he was looking for was the sex. Like I had said though, if that is all I was going to get out of it, well that's ok. The night was still amazing and empowering. It was so out of the norm for me. I held nothing back. I didn't sit there all night and second guess every move. I just did it. It was a huge ego booster. So after I accepted that it was what it was we went to bed. Sound asleep, I get woken up by my phone vibrating across the room at 11:00. Sure enough it's him. (I'm going to call him M from here on out.) I could tell right away that he was looking for a late night booty call. He mentioned how great the night before had been and how he was sitting there in his "boxer briefs" thinking of me. Horney little bastard huh?! He asked if it was ok to call the very next day or should he have waited a few days. I said that I don't play those games and he should do what ever he wanted. Reply - Ok I want to come over and go to sleep next to you. WHAMIE! Don't get me wrong it was a great idea. Now though I have to back off and slow down. I don't want or need a fuck buddy. So before answering I asked him exactly what he wanted from me. Reply - I want to be inside you, then fall asleep next to you, and sometime this weekend we could go out to dinner. I didn't let him come over. I don't want to be that easily accessible. He told me how he had a smile on his face all day. Ever feel like their telling you just what you want to hear to get what they want? He then tried for the phone sex. Honestly, I was exhausted and still couldn't believe he called, much less wanted to come right over. Remember it's a 45 minute drive, not exactly an easy midnight booty call. He told me he'd call tomorrow and we'll make plans to go out this weekend. Test number 2 - he didn't get what he wanted. Will he really call me today?
I tried very hard not to say what I was thinking. I can't believe you called. I was so sure I would never hear from you again. My roommate and I made a pact earlier in the night though. No more negativity, no more cutting things off at the kness. She and I both have of a way of sabotaging relationships with our negativity. So no more. I didn't say it. I'm letting it go. No more obsessing over it. I'm going to let it be what it is. Right now it's just a hell of a lot of fun!