In Memoriam

I found out yesterday that an old friend of mine commited suicide over the weekend. If there is one thing in life that I will never understand that's it. There were kids in school that commited suicide, kids. I remember the talks I had with my dad when it happened back then. They weren't friends of mine, but I certainly knew them. I guess the reason I'll never understand it is because I can't imagine being that so very far gone. I know that's a good thing. I've wanted to disappear before, but that never crossed my mind. The void that has to be there. I think you would have to be completely numb to everything to do this. The school refused to publish the kids that had killed themselves in the yearbook. I think it punished the other students more than the ones that had done it. They didn't have to memorialize them. Just their picture like everyone elses. All I can keep saying is that I just don't get it.
E - I hope you acheived whatever it is you were looking for. I pray for your family and for you. I pray that your family is able to cope and continue with their lives in peace and not guilt. I know full well what the bible says about suicide. Nonetheless, I pray for your own peace. In my thoughts, my words, and my heart Good Bye E.