There's No Road Coming Back This Way...

THIS is my letter to the world, That never wrote to me,— The simple news that Nature told, With tender majesty. Her message is committed To hands I cannot see; For love of her, sweet countrymen, Judge tenderly of me! Emily Dickinson

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Just a 30 something,divorced, disillusioned woman trying to find humanity in the big city.

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

Moving in

So A asked BR and I last night if we want to rent the condo from her. She is either going to rent it out or sell it and offered us the option first. Very sweet of her. Issue... am I ready to live with BR yet? We've been going out for 3 months now and, yes, he is there every night anyway. This is different though. It would mean a more solid commitment. Now if he pisses me off I just kick him out. :) I've only lived with 2 guys in my life and I was engaged to both at the time. When I said that to BR last night his reply was that we wouldn't be. DUH! I was only trying to make the point that this is a very serious move for me, if it happens. So I drilled him pretty good last night on where he wants to be career wise, relationship wise, and in life in general. I asked him to define the woman he wants to marry, his ideal relationship, and how he views our relationship. To be very honest, the thought of marriage again scares the hell out of me. He brings it up all the time, but last night I enforced the fact that I was being very serious. No joking around. He was actually very good with it all. He could tell how the thought got to me and took the time to listen and answer all my questions. I'm kinda suprised he's still talking to me today and hasn't run for the hills. Fact of the matter is that any move forward is going to scare me. The other fact is that nothing is happening right now. A was just throwing out an idea. She doesn't have anything else lined up yet. As she said last night, if it's supposed to happen, then it will when it's right for all of us. She's kind of a smart girl ya know.

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