Paranoia

Ever have that gut feeling that a bomb is about to drop. Come on you know what I'm talking about. It's that sensation that something is just not right. You can't quite put your finger on it and that's the most frustrating part. Then (if you're me anyway) you start becoming over sensitive to everything. You're looking to hard to find out what the hell is going on. You've backed off from everyone to try to see it. You're very much on edge and can't take even the slightest joke. Then (if you're me again) you've made a mountain out of a mole hill. I believe firmly in self manifestations. If you believe something bad is going to happen strong enough, then something bad will happen. I'm one hell of a pro at blowing things out of proportion. As optimistic as I try being, somehow I always expect the worst. I believe in trusting my gut, it's usually right. It's when my head gets a hold of that gut that paranoia takes over. I've said before that I hate not knowing, looks as though I have no choice. (Just be grateful you're not me.)