Still here

I apologize for being remiss with my blog lately. It's been a rough couple of weeks. BR came back unexpectedly a few weeks ago. He had planned on a weekend visit, but then something happened. There was a terrible accident at the job site and he was the only witness to a man getting crushed to death by a bulldozer. A few days after that the man driving the dozer killed himself. He was a very good friends of BR's. It's been two weeks of anxiety attacks, nightmares, counseling, and lots of tears. He goes back to Wyoming tomorrow. I, of coarse, am very concerned. I am staying here because he doesn't want me there yet. Plus I had a talk with Dr about my job and the selling of the practice. He informed me that if it doesn't sell by the end of October then he's going to close it by the end of the year. So I promised him that I would stick by it till then. BR said he would know by then what's going on and either come back here or move me up there. I'm really not sure how I feel about any of this. I don't want BR going back because he told me himself there have been nights he wouldn't have made it through if I weren't there. He doesn't have the support up there, and he's going to have to face it all there. My mind is very uncertain about a lot of things, and I just don't know.