Wave upon wave

This really sucks! One minute I'm ok and the next I'm in tears. It comes in waves. To be honest I don't know how I feel. I know it's normal. I know I'll be just fine. But right now, this really sucks! For me when a relationship comes to an end it's like the flashback episode of a TV show. Right now, I'm remembering everything.
Thank you for all the love and encouragement. Please no clichés. I have been here before and know them all, but thanks. I really don't want to talk about it. I also don't want to just go out a find someone else. I don't want anyone right now. Not true, I still want him. I still love him. There isn't anything anyone can say or do, but once again thanks.
I just have to live with my decision. No regrets, right. I am still fighting the urge to call or text him and take it all back. But that's not going to happen. Have I said how very much this sucks yet?! I keep hoping he'll just show up and fight for me. Or someone will call him and tell him how much of an idiot he is. I know, none of that is going to happen. I have always wanted someone to fight for me though.
Want a cliché or something extremely cheesy anyway? The only person that is going to fight for me is me. Now please excuse me while I go throw up.