Hurdles, Hoops, and Jumps

What a weekend. I told you Friday how things weren't that great with me and BR. Well, after work Friday they only continued to go down hill. We went up and down most of the weekend. By Sunday morning we pretty much settled back down, but damn. The issues came down to his insecurities and my wanting to be loved for who I am. He gets jealous very easily, and I'm not exactly a flirt, but I am friendly and outgoing. He and I couldn't come up with a middle ground for this one. On the gay rights we decided to have our views and just not discuss them with eachother. All I asked for on the other issue was to be loved for me. I felt as though he was calling me a bad person. He definately was making me feel bad for being friendly. We talked long and hard and did thinking on our own. Saturday afternoon I told him that I loved him and wasn't walking away. I had told him thousands of times before that I would never let him down and wasn't about to start now. That put the ball in his court. He wanted to step back and just take it one day at a time. Sounds good to me. Then he had to run off to work. Later that night I get a call and he wanted to come over and hold me. Ok. While we were laying there he informed me that he does love me for who I am and he doesn't want to loose me. That was just what I needed to hear. So that's where we're at. This Thursday we will have been together for 2 months. I'm glad to be doing all this early in the relationship. When it's early and you don't have so much invested it's easier to look at whether it's something you can live with or walk away from. No one ever said life would be easy. As a matter of fact my mom always informed me that it wasn't. I have said numerous times that I'm far from perfect and I don't want someone that is (or thinks they are). I do know for a tried and true fact to be careful what you wish for. You just may get it.