Serenity Now!

You don't have to be in a group to know and understand these words.

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change. The courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

They were screaming at me this weekend. Saturday wasn't the greatest of days, but I know full well that I bring most things on myself. I am very good at turning nothing into something. The bitch of it is that I realize and know what I'm doing as I'm doing it, yet it still happens. It's very obvious that I still have a lot of trust issues. I just need a little patience while I work through this. I don't mean to be nasty, but when I feel hurt (I know, no excuse) I jump right on the defensive. (and it's not pretty) I don't do anything half way. When I get cranky, it's full blown. I'm not happy with anything that went down that night. My actions, my emotions, my realizations. The disappointment this morning is only with myself. I'm a better person than what came out Saturday. I said it was gonna hurt when I fell off that pedestal.

Hey, I promised a very good friend of mine that I would write about something for him today. It will be Wednesday instead. But a huge Thank You once again for talking me off my ledge Saturday night.