Bullfrogs and Butterflies
So I had a chat with A last night about the guys I've been talking to. She thinks I'm making my judgements too quickly. Dr. Phil says that we're gonna kiss a lot of frogs so lets get it over with. In other words, if we know right away that it's not gonna go anywhere then move on. No need to play games. Get to the facts quickly and face them.
I'm starting to wonder if I'm really ready for a relationship. Am I just pushing them away and finding things wrong them because I don't want to get close to anyone yet? A very harsh but all to real probabilty. I know that I'm still jaded. I hear it in the disbelief. A compliment sounds like a line to me. Very little seems genuine. I don't wear it on my sleeve though. I'm a pro at hiding it. The poor toad doesn't have a clue that I don't believe a word he's saying.
I make sooooo many excuses as to why this one or that one won't work. My biggest complaint is that I want the WOW factor. And not WOW he snores louder than a freight train, or WOW that's really small. Harsh I know. None of these make me want to put any effort in them. In the early days :), I'd like a guy and I'd pull out all the stops. I'd put major effort into getting and keeping what I wanted. So far all I feel is a whatever. It's very sad when you know you don't care one way or the other.
Maybe I'm not ready. Maybe I'm too picky. Maybe I'm asking too much. Maybe I'm too judgemental. I'm still holding out the hope that one day my prince will come.
I'm starting to wonder if I'm really ready for a relationship. Am I just pushing them away and finding things wrong them because I don't want to get close to anyone yet? A very harsh but all to real probabilty. I know that I'm still jaded. I hear it in the disbelief. A compliment sounds like a line to me. Very little seems genuine. I don't wear it on my sleeve though. I'm a pro at hiding it. The poor toad doesn't have a clue that I don't believe a word he's saying.
I make sooooo many excuses as to why this one or that one won't work. My biggest complaint is that I want the WOW factor. And not WOW he snores louder than a freight train, or WOW that's really small. Harsh I know. None of these make me want to put any effort in them. In the early days :), I'd like a guy and I'd pull out all the stops. I'd put major effort into getting and keeping what I wanted. So far all I feel is a whatever. It's very sad when you know you don't care one way or the other.
Maybe I'm not ready. Maybe I'm too picky. Maybe I'm asking too much. Maybe I'm too judgemental. I'm still holding out the hope that one day my prince will come.


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