Be all that you can be!

This equation should be taught in all maths classes. From a
strictly mathematical viewpoint it goes like this:
What Makes 100%? What does it mean to give MORE than 100%? Ever
wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%?
We have all been to those meetings where someone wants you to
give over 100%. How about achieving 103%? What makes up 100% in
life?
Here's a little mathematical formula that might help you answer
these questions:
If:
A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z is
represented as:
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25
26.
Then:
H-A-R-D-W-O-R-K
8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98% !
And
K-N-O-W-L-E-D-G-E
11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96%
But,
A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E
1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%
And,
B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T
2+21+12+12+19+8+9+20 = 103%
AND, look how far ass-kissing will take you.
A-S-S-K-I-S-S-I-N-G
1+19+19+11+9+19+19+9+14+7 = 118%
So, one can conclude with mathematical certainty that:
While Hard Work and Knowledge will get you close, and Attitude
will get you there, it's the Bullshit and Ass Kissing that will
put you over the top.

Crazy little thing called...

Ever looked up the word Love in the dictionary? Love - Function: noun
Etymology: Middle English, from Old English lufu; akin to Old High German luba love, Old English lEof dear, Latin lubEre, libEre to please
1 a (1) : strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties love for a child> (2) : attraction based on sexual desire : affection and tenderness felt by lovers (3) :love for his old schoolmates> b : an assurance of love love>
2 : warm attachment, enthusiasm, or devotion <love of the sea>
3 a : the object of attachment, devotion, or admiration love> b (1) : a beloved person : DARLING -- often used as a term of endearment (2) British -- used as an informal term of address
4 a : unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another: as (1) : the fatherly concern of God for humankind (2) : brotherly concern for others b : a person's adoration of God
5 : a god or personification of love
6 : an amorous episode : LOVE AFFAIR
7 : the sexual embrace : COPULATION
8 : a score of zero (as in tennis)
9 capitalized, Christian Science : GOD
- at love : holding one's opponent scoreless in tennis
- in love : inspired by affection affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests
That's what good old Webster has to say. What is your definition?

Boing!

Spring has sprung. It's absolutely beautiful outside. Spring is my favorite time of year. I have this extra spring in my step and smile on face. It's great. The sun is out, it's warm again, it rains some, flowers are blooming, tree are turning green, and everyone is in a great mood. Love is in the air for some us too. My roommate is doing really well off match. She is down right adorable though. Who can blame them?
I've made a decision to change my daily routine. I'm going to meditate more and go back to the gym. Little things that will help with my state of mind. I'm a size 4, far from fat. Before that bathing suit goes on in a few months though, I need to tone some things up. All positve moves. I'm pretty sure that if I take care of myself that the rest will fall into place. Onward and upward!

The chemistry of it all

On the Today Show this morning I caught a segment about how much of love is a chemical reaction. The expert they had stated that 1 out of 10 is love at first sight. However it takes 3 dates to know if there is anything substantial there. Of coarse the standard American has sex on the 3rd date. Astrologists will tell you that you need to wait 40 days before having sex to avoid bad karma in a relationship. Everyone will tell you that any relationship takes work. The two main keys in any relationship are honesty and open communication.
Here's my opinion (ready or not). I believe in love at first sight. I also believe in taking a deeper look. I believe in fate, destiny, karma, and free will. Fate and destiny can only do so much. They give us the opportunity, but being human we don't always follow the yellow brick road. We are sure to make our share of mistakes. I don't believe that there is only one person we are meant to be with. That would mean that if we don't follow the path we're meant to then we will never find them and end up dying alone. We're too human to have such limitations put on us. However, I do believe that there is someone for everyone. Just many someones. I also believe that it comes when you're least expecting it. Let me just say, duh, of coarse it takes work. It shouldn't be hard though.
I want the chemical reaction. I want the smile that won't go away. I want it turn into stability and a deep feeling of love neverending. That smile while appear every time I think of them. My face will light up everytime they walk in the door. When I have something that I want to share, they will be the first person I think of. None of this will be one sided either. My best friend and my lover. Someone to share the good, bad, and the ugly. Something true and pure.
When the time is right love will find me. I'm not shutting any doors. I'm also not obsessing anymore. I'm ready for whatever comes my way. Hit me with your best shot.

Ouch

This online dating thing really is a harsh blow to an ego. I don't have much of one anyway, but this really hurts. I can't say that I don't turn down guys online. I do. However, I try to at least answer the emails and reply to even the winks that I get. I sent an email to the guy that I want to meet and he checked out my profile, but no response. I'm trying to blow it off. His loss, right? Still. I don't know. I know that I'm just suppossed to be myself, and they don't like it then that's their problem. I know, I know. I've heard it before and even said it myself. Obviously though, it's not good enough.
I know, I know. Grow a pair and get over it. Right. Dating in general is becoming very discouraging. They say that it comes along when your not looking for it. So am I ruining my chances by being on match? I have 3 months left with match and then I'm done with whole online scene. I'll have the been there, done that t-shirt. In 3 months we'll see if I'll be burning it or not. So far it's not looking good for the poor T.

Never say Never

Just when you think things can't get any worse. So Dr is selling the practice and I'm confused about what to do job wise, right? Not anymore, my last paycheck bounced. I adore Dr. I 've been doing optics for about 14 years now and never enjoyed a Dr as much as I do this one. I knew things weren't great around here also. Here's the kicker though, I think he knew and just didn't say anything to me. OUCH! Any sense of obligation I had at this point has gone out the window. If he was trying to make it easier for me to go, it worked.
On to a different subject. There's this guy on match that I REALLY want to meet. I finally have a better pic to put up as my primary too. Now the question is what do I say. He is really hot and that only means that a lot of other girls are gonna be saying hi also. I don't want to wink. I hate the winks. I want give him something to answer back to. I have to stand out though. What the hell do I say? F**k!
I think this whole online dating scene makes me feel like a piece of meat at the butchers. The photo is the first thing they see. If they don't like that then there's no reason to even read the profile. If you get to the profile then you have to be different from the millions of others online. They have you behind a window all lined up "yes, no, no, no, maybe, no, yes." AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
They have so little to go on. What they see on a profile is just a small window into who we are. Yet you have be jumping up and down screaming, PICK ME, PICK ME! Give me a chance.
Do you guys feel the same? If so I'm sorry, because this truely sucks.

Never had a chance

Rising Sign is in 01 Degrees Scorpio
You tend to be quiet, reserved, secretive and, at times, quite difficult to understand. Others notice your deep emotions and feelings and wonder how to draw you out. Stubborn and tough, you fight for any position you believe in. You are very resourceful and formidable when you become angered or upset about something. You enjoy living life at the cutting edge -- for you life must be experienced intensely and totally. Quite courageous, you are willing to take calculated risks. Easily hurt by others, you often strike back with bitter sarcasm. Sensitive and curious, you are concerned with the deeper mysteries of human psychology. Once you have become interested in any subject, you pursue it with total fanaticism.

Sun is in 07 Degrees Taurus.
You are known for being patient, slow moving and careful -- you love to prolong and savor enjoyable times. You appreciate and need comfort, ease and warm surroundings. Be careful of a tendency to become placid and self-satisfied and to overeat (especially sweets). You require strenuous situations in order to grow and mature properly, even though you try to avoid them. Affectionate, even-tempered and slow to anger -- when you do become emotionally upset, you are also slow to forgive and time must pass before your calm returns. You demand real results from any situation -- abstractions are very difficult for you to comprehend. Very artistic, your hands love to mold and shape things. You portray an earthy, physical sexiness that others find quite seductive.

Moon is in 19 Degrees Cancer.
For the most part, you are very strong and secure emotionally. You intuitively know what to do to make others feel comfortable, loved, accepted and needed. You naturally enjoy feeding and taking care of others. Be careful that your mothering does not turn into smothering. At times, you tend to feel that those to whom you are attached can never do anything without your assistance and support. Extremely sensitive by nature, it hurts you deeply whenever anyone criticizes you. You have an almost desperate need to be loved and wanted and needed by everyone with whom you come into contact, and you go out of your way to be accommodating to them.

Spinning wheel

Up, down, round, and round, it's all the same old shit. I'm tired of going round and round and ending back where I started. My life to this point is going in circles and I don't know how to get off. I turn 32 in just over a month and have accomplished nothing I had planned to have done at this point. I know that life happens and often times screws plans up, but I can't mark even one thing off my list. I have the opportunity to change the coarse now with my job. Problem being as I said in another post that I'm not even sure how to do that. I'm not changing my stance on the fact that everything will work out. I just want something different. I need for things to change not just work out. I want things to change. Time to make another list.
As for match, my heart's just not in it right now. I talked to one guy for a little bit, but there wasn't enough to keep us talking. Oh well. Mostly my fault because I wasn't putting forth any effort. Just need to step back from that for now anyway. When the time is right it'll happen. Same with the job. This is it though, this is the turning point for my life. Kind of an intimidating feeling.

Lost

I'm kind of at a loss of what do to with the news about the practice. Because of my feelings about my job I've been looking for a while now. Here's the thing though... when is it gonna sell? I really don't want to leave him hanging, but it's been on the market for over a year already. I really don't want to hang around for another year. It has my emotions very mixed. I have some real opportunities to jump at, but what if I get the job and he hasn't sold the practice yet? I don't know what to do. AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tension breaker had to be done. I can't afford to put things on hold, and yet how far forward do I move? I know that I need to look out for myself (selfpreservingly), but I don't want to hurt him while I do this.
I am a real pro at driving myself crazy. Someone tell me what to do. Please.

Enough about me...

Today the post goes to greatest man I'll ever know. My dad! My dad is 58, husband, father, grandfather, physicist, humanitarian, and Iditarod musher! He achieved his life long dream when he crossed into Nome at 4:17 am Alaska time this morning. There is not a single soul I know of that deserves it more. His story is on his site with stats and more on the race itself. (check links on sidebar) He was voted most popular rookie of the year, got the humanitarian award in an earlier qualifying race, and is called a hero from a fellow musher he helped near the beginning of the Iditarod. I couldn't be more proud. My dad has his PhD in Physics. He is a story teller and writer. He is the most compassionate man I've ever known. He is the voice of reason when I need it. He genuinely listens to you. His motto in life is that even a mud puddle can reflect the sunshine. I honestly don't know anyone with his consistant optimism, grace, strength, courage, purity, gentleness, kindness, respectfulness, and love of life.
I am truely blessed to have such a soul as my father.

And how was your weekend?

Mission accomplished Friday. I did St. Patty proud and got smashed. Really not proud of my actions, I was extremely drunk. The next morning at work wasn't fun. Oh well, gotta pay the price. At least I didn't have the drive I did this morning while still drunk. Colorado is getting a beautiful snow storm. The roads are hell, but not enough to give me a snow day damn it, Janet!
Here's the big news for the weekend though. I was informed Saturday at work that Dr. is selling the practice. It's been on the market for over a year now. The reason he didn't tell me sooner was because he didn't want me to freak out and leave him hanging. Plus he's recently adjusted the price and is getting more serious offers now. It really knocked me off my feet. It explains a lot about things that have been going on around here. Next question is what am I going to do? Well, I'm suprisingly calm about the situation. All my doors are open now, and I don't have to have the talk with him about me moving on. I had lunch with P Sunday and I have sooooo many options now. It will be interesting to see where this road takes me. I really will miss working with him though. He and I get along so well, and I adore his wife and dog. (Major note if PS is reading this - you can't tell a soul!) I have this amazing feeling of relief. It will all work out, of this I am sure.

Side note - Feeling abandoned lately from friends and family so if you want to leave a comment feel free. Just so I can tell if there's life out there.

Happy Drinkin Day

Being half Irish half German I never need an excuse to have a couple drinks, but I'll never turn one down either. Plans for the wearin' of the green? Well, no dates on the horizon so tonight it's drinks with friends. It's always safer to get drunk around thoose you trust anyway. Nothing sets a good first impression like getting hammered on a first date. Plus, I know that I'll get home safe, not get taken advantage of, and I can make a complete ass out of myself. One downside to all of this planned drinking; I have to work tomorrow morning. Oh,well. As you can tell I really don't plan on letting that get in my way.

Big news here in Colorado is the smoking ban. It passed Senate last night, now our esteemed Governor will sign the bill and Colorado will be smoke free. There are only a few exceptions- casinos, cigar stores, tobacco shops, and the smoking lounge at DIA. All of this should go into effect July 1 and make Colorado the 18th state to have such law. Just another example of big government impossing their beliefs on us all. I've heard both sides to the argument. I side with the smokers for a few reasons. They have smoke free restaurants and bars, if you don't like the smoke go there. For the workers it's the same. This is the land of the free. Free will, freedom to choose. You can choose not to go/work at a smokey bar or restaurant. Smokers should just as easily be able to choose to have a cigarette. I really like Colorado, but it's getting more and more conservative. For me it's a slow death by suffocation.

Nothing to report

Had dinner with P last night. I asked her opinion on my expectations for a relationship. Her basic answer was that there is someone for everyone. Not really an answer if you ask me. Oh well. A is working on my photo for match. After I get that back then I'm going to email one guy that I would like to meet. At the moment I seem to be getting hit by divorced guys with kids. It's like just because I'm divorced I shouldn't get hit on by anyone else. I really am frustrated at this point. Once again, Oh well.
Ok, not exactly nothing to report. I had a dream about B last night. It was a dream that he came back. I was very happy about it in the dream. The dream was very nice. Then of coarse as we all do sometime, I woke up. I don't get it. I don't want him back. I've said before that it never works. I always end up with my heart in pieces. I can not and will not do it again! So what the hell was the dream all about? I think today I'm just frustrated in general. So I won't ramble on anymore.

Reality

I don't like that word. It dashes dreams, crushes hopes, and just plain hurts. I'm this hopeless romatic that believes that I can have it all. Call me naive (it's ok you won't be alone) , but I always see the good in people. I give second chances (third and forth too sometimes). I believe in the magic of a first kiss, and soul mates, and true love. I still believe that there is someone for everyone. Yes, I even believe in love at first sight. I wish upon stars and four leaf clovers.
I accept that life is what is. We don't always get what we want, but everything happens for a reason. The reality of it is, I don't want it any other way.

The Thunderbolt

Ok, so I watch Desperate Housewives. Truth be told I watch far too much TV in general. Anyway, I digress. Sunday's episode had Susan and Lynette discussing relationships. Susan is seeing this doctor whom she likes but can't bring herself to say she loves him. He's a great guy, a little cheesy, but certainly loves her. She just doesn't feel the thunderbolt with him. She had the thunderbolt with her ex and with Mike and says it got her into nothing but trouble. So now she's settling so she can have something stable. Of coarse we find out later under the influence of anesthesia that she really does love Mike. Duh. Point being though, do we really have to settle? Can we only have one or the other? I find it hard to believe that I can't have stability and excitement. Proof would be Lynette and her husband. They have a great family, successful careers, and still find time to have sex in an elevator. Going down Mr. Tyler? :)
I'm beginning to think that I'm asking for too much from my relationships. I don't want Mr. Perfect, I'm too far from it to expect that. But are my expectations to high? I've been standing my ground and trying not to settle. My question is do I need to give in a little ?

The Cards

A is very into astrology and all that stuff. I believe in it, but don't quite have her obsession. (I have other obsessions.) Anyway, she has bought a new set of cards and is trying to learn them. So she did my cards a few times Friday night. It always gets creepy for me when the same ones keep popping up. One of the ones I kept getting says that someone from my past is going to try to come back in my life. My mind immediately goes to B. Not the one I mentioned off match, but the B, my exhusband B. He has tried to come back numerous times and each time I get my heart broken. It never seems to work. I question the fact that it's him though because he's in Florida. So if it's not him, then who?
A is still a beginner at the card thing. She usually gets it right with me, but this deck is new. So, I'm wondering if maybe it's just the past is interferring with my present. I asked the cards when I would find the relationship I want. And the Charlie Chapman card as I call it kept coming up. Like I said it's supposed to mean that someone from the past is going to come back. Sometimes though cards have different meanings for us. Knowing the difficulty I'm having in dating, well it kind of makes sense. Not that anyone is coming back, but that I'm letting the past mess up my future.
At this point it's the only logical answer. I can't come up with one person from my past that would try to come back. I've only had a few exs try to come back and they don't know where I am. And that was so very long ago. Not counting B of coarse. I really just can't see it being him at this point. I know - let it go. That's what I'm doing right now. My lord , my angels it is in your hands now.

Bullfrogs and Butterflies

So I had a chat with A last night about the guys I've been talking to. She thinks I'm making my judgements too quickly. Dr. Phil says that we're gonna kiss a lot of frogs so lets get it over with. In other words, if we know right away that it's not gonna go anywhere then move on. No need to play games. Get to the facts quickly and face them.
I'm starting to wonder if I'm really ready for a relationship. Am I just pushing them away and finding things wrong them because I don't want to get close to anyone yet? A very harsh but all to real probabilty. I know that I'm still jaded. I hear it in the disbelief. A compliment sounds like a line to me. Very little seems genuine. I don't wear it on my sleeve though. I'm a pro at hiding it. The poor toad doesn't have a clue that I don't believe a word he's saying.
I make sooooo many excuses as to why this one or that one won't work. My biggest complaint is that I want the WOW factor. And not WOW he snores louder than a freight train, or WOW that's really small. Harsh I know. None of these make me want to put any effort in them. In the early days :), I'd like a guy and I'd pull out all the stops. I'd put major effort into getting and keeping what I wanted. So far all I feel is a whatever. It's very sad when you know you don't care one way or the other.
Maybe I'm not ready. Maybe I'm too picky. Maybe I'm asking too much. Maybe I'm too judgemental. I'm still holding out the hope that one day my prince will come.

Sometimes I really wonder

Feast or famine is my experience with match. I average about 100 hits a week, true. But one day I'll receive like 20 and the next couple nothing. Not quiet sure how to fix that. I got a hit the other day though from a profile that I must use as a very bad example - Well ladies, my time here on match is almost up. I can't say that my time on match has been all that rewarding, but I am going to give it one more shot. I am going to say what I truely feel because I feel that honesty is always the best policy. I am 27 years old. Within the last year all I want is to be married and have a family. I never thought I would feel like this but I guess my "guy biological clock" is ticking. Everyone tells me that I am still young and to take my time, but that advice is coming from all the people that have a significant other. When X-mas morning came, I didn't want gifts, I wanted to give gifts. All I wanted was to see that smile on my ladies face after I gave her something that she really wanted. I know this sounds sappy, but I really don't care. Sometimes I can be sappy, thats what makes me, me. Lately, all I can do is look around and wonder why a guy like me that has a heart of gold does not have someone. I don't understand women! I don't understand why a girl would want to date a guy that treats her like dirt. I don't understand why a guy like me can't get a date. I am very sweet, and I think that is my downfall. I think girls want the "bad guy", and I don't understand that either. Well, I could go on and on about my life and how I don't understand women, but I think that would get kind of boring. So I will write a couple more things about myself and then I am off. I am a very determined person. I am moving on from a job I have been at for over four years because I don't believe I am getting anywhere. I need to be succesful in life. I want my wife to have the option of staying home and not working. I have a lot of interests and a lot of hobbies. I enjoy the outdoors and will try anything. I love to stay in, cuddle, and watch movies. I enjoy a night gettting dressed up and going out on the town. I get a kick out of sitting at a "hole in the wall" bar. Well, I hope to hear from you soon. Wow! My first thought is a very sarcastic "he's not bitter is he". It's very nice that he wants to have someone to share things with and to take care of. But this guy comes across hurt right from the get go. This is a classic sign of what not to post. Next is an email I received. Again bad example - Hi. Read your profile. You sound interesting. Look at my profile, if your interested get back in touch. Too short. And what's with the "you sound interesting"? He too sounds bitter. In a much shorter time period. Telling a girl she sounds interesting is NOT how to get her attention. I put a lot of quality stuff in my profile. Most of the responses are very generous. Definately not interesting. Plus the whole tone of the email sounds short, abrupt, and kind of rude. Honestly, what are you guys thinking? All I can say is that I got a giggle out of it. Just because to me they really are absurd.

I hate text messaging

So I had to text massage SA yesterday to cancel our date. I really hate text messaging. I much prefer talking to a person. However he was at work and doesn't talk while working. Well, he never got the text and now assumes that I stood him up. Once again though, I have to send a text to rectify the situation, and probably call things off too. Breaking up with someone via email used to be bad. Now we have this damned texting. I understand that technology is a great thing. It has made advances in many lives medically that are wonderful. But what has it done to human contact. Everywhere you look people are on their cell phones with no thought to anyone else around them. No one writes letters anymore, even long distance phone calls have lessoned because of email. And with cell phones you don't even have to call, you send a text. No wonder we have to try online dating. You can't get a real person to talk to you anymore.

?????????????????

What's the definition of insanity? That's right doing the same thing over and over again, but expecting different results. I need to trust my gut more often. When something doesn't seem right then usually it's not. I'm talking about SA. I'm going to cancel dinner tonight. My gut is telling me that something isn't right. I like him. He's nice. I never should have slept with him. He's already annoying me in many little ways. I am putting my foot down now. I know it shouldn't happen so why does it? NO MORE SEX ON THE FIRST DATE! Or second, possibly even third. I know it's all my fault. These feelings that is. I want to take it slow. I want to get to know someone first. My sleeping with someone on the first date ruins that for me. Both times though I was drunk and horney. I know, no excuse. Problem is that both times the sex sucked. This just isn't the kind of relationship I want. I want someone to love me for me, not what's in between the sheets. I want to be excited about the next date not dreading it. I'm dreading having to even talk to SA now. Yup, I've ruined it before it even got started. I think JNM is the safest bet right now, because he's to far away for me to sleep with. Honestly, I'm not a slut. I sure do feel like it though. I average a hundred hits a week and so far nothing has come close to me saying "I think this could be it." Very discouraging. I really want to fall in love. Am I asking to much? Probably not, but I'm definatly going about the wrong way. TTFN!

And the next contestant is...

So I went out with SA Saturday night. Wow. He really is a very nice guy. We had a great time and are going out again Tuesday night. Is this the one? Hell, if I know. I don't think so though. I'm feeling very torn with him. He is very nice and we get along fabulously. There are just a few things that don't sit right. I know that I'm judgemental, but he takes the cake. He also seems fairly materialistic. It's till too early to judge. It's too early for a lot of things that happened Saturday night. I'm supposed to have dinner with JT Friday night, but I'm gonna cancel that one. After talking to him on the phone I was bored off my ass and he wouldn't shut up. It's ok though. That's why I like to chat at least once before meeting. You can tell so much more on the phone than by email. The tone of voice, the infliction, the voice it's self is all there to hear instead of inferring what you think they mean.
I told A last night that I think I'm being self destructive. That's with my job, not my other relationships. It does seem to rub off though. I can't seem to face Dr and tell him what I need to, so instead I'm doing things that I know will get me fired. SO NOT COOL! This whole mess is making me physically ill. Something's gonna happen and I just want it to be over now. One way or the other.

Dear Abby...

So in one of my many blog searches I came across a guy in the UK that's on match. He's having some difficutly it sounds like though. So I wrote that I'd leave a post with some advice to all guys trying the online dating scene. #1) Don't wink at a girl, send an email. Write something that makes her smile and gives her something to answer back too.
Example- Hi there!! I have read that saying before and I really like it too. I really enjoyed reading your profile....you are a very beautiful woman but pictures can only take you so far. I thought your profile echoed mine quite a bit so I just thought I'd say a quick hello and we could go from there. I know I don't live in your area but I am searching outside of my comfort zone and I don't live my life by constraints especially when it comes to love....I just need to know you're open to it too =). Anyways my name is J....I was married once for 11yrs...I have been divorced for 3yrs...single for 2....I have 3 great kids that live with their mom most of the time. I have been single for a while and I'm not really into the bar scene unless it's with you...It's not really where you go but the company you're with I think. So I don't do the club-scene or the bar scene like most and I don't shop at the local 'meat markets' either....not into that at all. I'm just here looking for some[1]ne special....eventhough this is an online dating service...L.[].L....go figure!!! I just thought I'd give this a try....I've been here for 6 months....met some good friends but haven't found that one where everything just falls into place. I'm looking for someone who can be honest with me and tell me what she feels and what she wants. I am very open and honest....it's just in my nature....so it would be nice to have that in return. I'm tired of having to guess or just not-knowing....so it would be great to find my best friend and romantic partner all wrapped up in one. I value friendship especially in a relationship....I think you should always support eachother as friends. You know you can never have too many friends and lovers they come and go but friends last forever so I prefer to take the time and put forth the effort to get to know someone. Anyways ck' out my profile and see whatcha' think. If I'm not what you're looking for (I'll be crushed!!!....L.[].L....just kidding!!!)...just let me know. I hope you find the one that makes your heart happy!!!.................... I really liked this one.
Bad example - Good afternoon, I am gonna be frank with you. You sounds interesting. Your likes and dislike are almost similar as mine and I adore your pics. You are very attractive. Of course your personality to me is unknown and that is I would like to find out. I would like to hear morea about you. If you still have doubts I can tell you more about me and more pictures. Sincerely, This guy on the other hand can't type at all and never did leave his name. #2) The very next thing I see is the pic. Try to understand that this is your first impression on the girl. Make sure you're visible. Not to overdone, we want you to look better than the pic not worse. No pics with other girls! That's just dumb. #3) In the profile tell us what you like and don't like. You've got to watch the don't like though because you don't want to be negative for the first impression. Be cute, tell a joke, even if it's lame. Then kind of laugh at yourself.
Truth be told, by the time most of us end up online we have exhausted all other avenues. Most of us online are looking for that someone to spend the rest of our life with. We are done with games and want something real. So biggest advice is just be yourself. I still believe that there is someone out there for everyone. Dating is tough in any venue. The more you meet though the better chance you have of finding what you're looking for. So send an email, call her up, meet for coffee. You'll know from there if you want anymore. Good Luck!

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So yesterday was a good day with Dr. He was in a much better mood, but I still didn't bring anything up. Ugh!
On the match front - I talked to SA for quite a while last night. Not exactly sure what to think of him. We're going to meet Sunday for lunch. He made me laugh. Good thing. I also felt that he was using lines on me here and there though. I'm getting the player vibe. Especially with the pic he sent me. He's cute, but I don't like the girl in the photo at all. He also doesn't seem like the brightest bulb in the box. He didn't know who John Wilkes Booth was. (Spelling?) I mean come on. Still, gonna meet him Sunday. I blew off the phone call from JT last night because I was enjoying the talk with SA too much. I'll chat with JT tonight. So far JNM and I are just emailing back and forth. Which is just fine. I really don't want anything long distance. I'm gonna go get more coffee now and get to work. See ya!

What a difference....

Too Cheesy? Fuck it I am cheesy! What a difference a day makes! JT wants to meet. I gave him my # this morning and he'll probably call tonight. JNM also has my number now. So moving forward with thoose two. JNM sent me an email this morning and called me sweetie. It made me smile. I have a new wink from another with no pic. But we're not judging on pics right? So I winked back. Then I got another email from someone we're going to call SA. His first initial is S, but I want to be able to keep him apart from THE S. JNM says he's looking for a relationship and doesn't want to date a bunch of people at once. I agree, but he lives in NM. So I'm not putting all my eggs in one basket so to speak. I'm going to meet new people until I find the one I want to have the one on one with. I know that I haven't gone out on many dates off match. Truth be told, I get about a hundred hits a week. Not bad. I am very picky. Now that I've changed my profile entry I'm hearing from guys that I'd actually meet. So all in all it was a good move. Need to call dad now. 4 days and counting! I am soooo very proud of him.
Didn't do the work last night I was going to about dealing with Dr. He was very cranky yesterday. Kind of bit off my head. I don't know why I'm procrastinating on this so badly. It's like I'm just waiting for things to work out on their own. That's not gonna happen. Honestly, I see it taking one more week for me to get shit together on this.